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Forgiveness is essential

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Forgiveness is essential for a happy life and peace of mind.

Forgiveness can be a hard won battle. And it is a battle. We teeter, at least I do, between the anger and the releasing. How do you let go of a transgression that caused so much pain?  I’m talking about truly letting go, absolute and complete release, so that there is no longer a remnant of the pain or resentment. I found myself in this position. The pain was palpable, as if I had been physically cut. I knew that I could not afford to hold on to the anger, but I was having a difficult time in forgiving the person(s) that hurt me.

I did the normal things, like venting to my confidants. I yelled, cried and prayed, yet I still had not forgiven the person(s). The hurt feelings and anger began to build instead of retreat. The tightness in my chest and belly would not go away. I kept replaying the incidents over and over in my head. Could I have done something different? How could this person do this to me? Was my response too excessive? I decided to remove the transgressor from my life completely. However, they were still a part of the loop in my brain and the pressure in my chest. I had to dig deep and look outside of the box.

I needed help. I went in search of enlightenment and found it on YouTube. Who knew that was possible? I searched for forgiveness and found two videos that put it all in perspective for me. I wish I could say that after watching the videos I was able to forgive right then and there, but that is not the case. I can however say that I did learn a few things and forgiveness is coming. It’s okay that it is coming in small increments. The point is that I’m moving more in forgiveness than anger.

The first video I watched was “The Law of Forgiveness” by Bob Proctor. My first impression was that Bob kind of looked and sounded like a minister. That was a little bit off putting, but I quickly bypassed that feeling to focus on the message at hand. The four points that I took from this video were:

  1. Let it go completely.
  2. Don’t hold on to resentment. It is not healthy.
  3. You cannot hold on to bad thoughts in your mind and move in a good direction. (6:40)
  4. Form a habit of letting go of things that make you feel bad.

All of these points have their own difficulties. Letting it go, includes 86ing the resentment, anger, bad thought loops in your headall of it. That’s hard work. Number four is truly the best step in the process because if you can make a habit of letting go of things that make you feel bad you are one step closer to peace of mind. I believe having this habit will make it easier to forgive. Point three is the one that really sticks with me because my goal is to continue to move in a good direction. I can see how the negative emotions are hindering my growth and remembering this point helps me tremendously on my journey of forgiveness.

The other video I watched was Bishop T.D. Jakes at Lakewood. This video was almost an hour long, but well worth the time to watch. There were so many things I gleaned from Bishop Jakes’ wise words. The top three points for me are:

  1. Forgive the way you want God to forgive you.
  2. Unforgiveness is not natural (22:26) and is a learned behavior (28:46).
  3. Unforgiveness holds you back.

When Bishop Jakes mentioned the Lord’s Prayer and paused at “and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors” to make a point that we as Christians/humans want God to forgive us completely, so in turn we should forgive just as He does. Ouch! That was definitely a wake up call for me. Bishop Jakes further explained that not forgiving is a learned behavior and is unnatural. He gave the perfect example of children still loving you even after getting in trouble. I knew by the end of this video that I had to release the resentment and anger because it was keeping me in a state of unhappiness.

There was hope for me because if this was a learned behavior I could definitely unlearn this destructive practice. I no longer felt bad about having such a hard time forgiving. My focus is now on learning new behaviors that will enrich my life and increase my happiness. I highly encourage you to watch the videos. You may find a treasure of wisdom that touches and changes your perspective too.

What helps you when it comes to forgiveness? Is unforgiveness holding you back in your life?


Finding My Passions Part 2

Photo of a garden that made me smile. Photography is an Art. :) Finding my passions (p2)

Photo of a garden that made me smile. This is a happiness nugget. 🙂 Photography is an Art. 
Finding my passions (p2)

Yesterday, I posted about finding my top five passions, as an assignment from my best friend, The Fixer. By traveling through my childhood memories I was able to find three passions, creating stories, reading and art. I was also surprised that I had forgotten how much I loved to do these activities in the past. Although, I had found and excavated three passions, I was still on the lookout for two more.

This time I decided to not just focus on childhood, but on my life as a whole. I am confident in saying that I am a creative soul, but I am also known as the caregiver. From my earliest memory I have loved to help others. In my opinion, I let this love become perverted to the extent that caring for others was the priority. By that I mean in my pursuit to help and please others, my needs, wants, & desires became non-important to non-existent. Don’t get me wrong, helping others is important, but my path and intent became skewed. Eventually, I began to hate helping others. I did not want to extend myself to anyone because I was just tired of doing and helping, and helping and doing. Serving others did not fill me with joy, but with dread, resentment and frustration. Over the last few years I have severely limited myself when helping others. Ultimately it is necessary to keep all things in balance, and I realize that if am to pursue the passion of helping, I have to find that stability to find joy again in helping others.

Although, helping others is a passion, it is a bruised passion. So I continued to search and I re-discovered my joy of learning. I wasn’t sure if learning could stand on its own or if it should be coupled with reading. I have always been a stellar student, going all in when there was something new to learn, with the exception of statistics. Although my skills were adequate, math has never been a subject that I enjoyed. My college English professor was one of many to encourage me to write and help others with their writing. He actually felt I should become an English teacher. I wasn’t sure if I had the patience to teach, but I heartily enrolled in creative writing courses. I used my childhood love of creating stories and brought my characters to life. That’s when I learned my skills were pretty good. My classmates actually enjoyed my stories. Writing is definitely a passion that makes my heart sing.

The more I sought out my passions, more came to mind. I realized I truly enjoyed self discovery. That is exactly what I am doing now (and it is pretty amazing if I do say so myself). I have also wanted to travel the world to see the wonders it provides and learn about the different people and cultures sharing the earth with me. Most recently, I found that I enjoy organizing a party. The logistics of getting people to work together, coming up with a theme and then making it happen really excites me. Now, I’m in a quandary, a good one, but still a quandary. I have more than five passions. It was time to get my “hands” dirty so to speak and truly determine what makes my heart sing.

So far, I have writing, reading, art, helping others, learning, self discovery, travel and party planning. You may ask, “Why do you have to cut any of your passions?” The truth is I don’t. I just want to complete the assignment as it was assigned, top 5 passions. I spent a lot of time in thought and prayer. This is the list I gave to my friend: 1. Self-Discovery 2. Writing & Editing 3. Learning 4. Art 5. Helping Others.

The goal is to turn these passions into a form of income. This quote brought this assignment and all I learned about myself  into perspective for me. 

You have immeasurable potential. Just as a tiny seed can become a giant redwood tree, you have only scratched the surface of your potential. You have the creator of the universe on your team and you’ve been given the ball, so run with it. Run knowing that you have immeasurable potential. -Anonymous

Have you been down this path before? Do you make a living by pursuing your passions? Please share. I would love to hear your stories.

Joy and Happiness

Joy and Happiness

Joy and Happiness

My dog, Lucky, is the driving force that gets me going in the morning. Doggy kisses usually require an escape plan which entails me leaving the comfort and warmth of my bed. Once his nefarious plan has succeeded, he begins his victory laps, running with such enthusiasm it sounds like a herd of horses. Keep in mind he only weighs 16 pounds.

Today started just like any other day. There was, however, a chance encounter with a young lady from the neighborhood. We chatted about many things, but what touched me the most was her lack of joy and happiness. She told me she could not remember a time of being happy. I do have to keep in mind she is a teenager and this statement could just be part of the teenage angst that many experience. But me being me, I could not leave it there. I shared with her some of my life struggles with depression and finding joy.

No one wants to feel alone in their battle, and that is why I share my experiences. I, by far, do not have all the answers. And the “answers” I do have, aren’t really answers, but techniques that I use. Sometimes they help me and sometimes they don’t. The key is not to give up. It is okay to take a break, re-group, re-focus and then re-start, but don’t give up. Keep moving forward, even if it is by millimeters, keep moving forward.

One of the techniques I use is…. (drum roll please)my imagination. It’s free! It’s convenient! It’s always available! I imagine a better place, a happier place, a fun place. I imagine/envision myself happy and I feel the happiness. I go back to good memories that brought joy. I can do this anywhere. It helps to smile, giggle and laugh. Of course I do that part in the privacy of my own home.

Another technique I use isobservation. I seek out things that take my breath away. I look for amazing and ordinary things, no matter how small or insignificant, that makes me smile and lifts my spirit. I call them happiness nuggets. A butterfly flitting across my path to land on a flower, the laughter of a child, a smile to another and there are so many more. A while back, my boyfriend said to me, “no matter if you are down and sad you always sing a commercial and it makes you happy.” Now who finds happiness in a commercial jingle? I do.

Trust and believe that the more you focus on something, whatever that something may be, it is going to show up in your life. A prime example is when you purchase a new car; suddenly you see “your” car everywhere.  So, focus on seeing yourself in joy. After my conversation Joy and Happiness were forefront on my mind. When I arrived home, I found the following post on The Secret’s Facebook page. It fits perfectly with today’s post.

Every day, or at the very least once or twice a week, take a few minutes and focus on seeing yourself in joy. Feel yourself in joy. Imagine only joy ahead in your life and see yourself basking in it. As you do this the Universe will move all people, circumstances, and events to bring you that joy. You can’t be in joy if you have money worries, or health worries, or relationship problems with friends or family. So deposit some joy in the bank of the Universe as often as you can. There isn’t an investment that is more worthwhile. – Rhonda Byrne

How do you do keep your happiness level up?

Be Careful of What You Wish For

Be Careful of What You Wish For, Because You MIght Just Get It.

Be careful of what you wish for, because you might just get it.

I would often hear the older women in my family offer the following advice, “be careful of what you wish for, because you might just get it.” There was no discriminator for this advice; it was good for everyone, young or old. As a child the advice made absolutely no sense to me. Who wouldn’t want their wish to come true? It has taken me many years, different experiences and 20/20 hindsight to understand the magnitude of this simple parable.

I started this blog to explore abundance.  At the very core of my existence, I needed a change. I have experienced lack in many areas for many years, lack of friendship, lack of money, lack of happiness and the list goes on. Lack, had become my companion. Then it came to me, I needed the exact opposite of what I had been experiencing. I needed abundance.  Great, I now have my solution, but I knew nothing of abundance or how to reach it. That was the creation of this blog, my exploration of abundance.

I started with the following affirmation, “I want to experience abundance in every area of my life, business, relationships, health, and spirituality. “

I was so excited. My mind stayed focused on abundance to the point that I found it difficult to sleep or think about anything else. When I was able to sleep, business ideas and possibilities invaded my dreams. I was overwhelmed, to say the least.  Abundance was making herself known.

I received three invitations for Thanksgiving dinner.  Wow! I was excited. The year before, I spent the holiday in bed, too ill to attend any functions. This year, I did everything that I could, to attend each dinner. It was well worth the effort, because I began to connect with others. I was building relationships and making new friendships. There was an abundance of laughter, love and food shared with many people, family, old and new friends included.

I was thrilled. I began to focus my thoughts on making an income. I knew that I wanted to work from home. I knew that I needed a lot of training. I also knew that I needed a support system. I knew that I wanted and needed multiple streams of income. I prayed for each item and the next day I found an online opportunity that provided in full. It was La Bella Baskets. I felt it was too good to be true.

By the end of December 2012 I was working on my new business, Abundant Joy Gift Baskets. Then I picked up a cold. I pushed through the illness. Then I picked up another one, and another one. I was sick for many months.  My enthusiasm began to wane then totally disappear. My fatigue increased and depression took control.  I didn’t want to do anything, go anywhere, or talk to anyone. Now being sick wasn’t part of my “abundance vision,” but if did fit the abundance spectrum. I had an overflow of illness.

When I look back on my experiences I realized there are a few key things that worked for me and some that worked against me.  I understand the parable even more. I learned to be very specific when asking for my dreams/wishes/desires to come true. This is where the “be careful” comes into play. It is important to carefully and purposely decide what I want to see manifest in my life. I also need to retain the excitement and passion, even through the tough times. Whatever my mind is focused on will show up in my life, whether it is good or bad. I’m focusing on the good. I’m

determined to continue this journey. Please share what you have learned while pursuing your dreams.